Today I read a post from Mary Demuth. She had a feature post about a women who cut herself and how she found healing.
When I first started reading I thought what do I need to read about cutting for – I’m not a cutter…never was a cutter.
I couldn’t stop reading it was drawing me in.
As I continued to read I was taken to a memory as a young teen of about 14 years old when I carved a boys initials into my ankle. I cut myself….but for what reason.
Did I think it was cool ?? probably
Did I do it because a friend was doing it?? probably
A deeper reason…. yes
I wanted a someone I belonged to
I wanted to be loved deeply
I wanted acceptance
I wanted a safe place
Years later as I grew and searched for love
I met my someone
I became deeply loved
and my heart found safety
in the arms of Jesus.
Then I became a giver –a someone for others. As I learned what love really was, I became one who was a lover, an accepter of people, a safe place for the heart of another.
Through HIM who is my ALL and ALL
Through HIM who is OUR ALL and ALL
we can become people who LOVE and are LOVED
Show me the wonders of your great love, you who save by your right hand those who take refuge in you from their foes.
Our greatest foe can be ourselves. Without God and His truth we search for understanding in all the wrong places. We try to find answers to our pain, hurt and needs in all the wrong things. Things that often make us worst or give us only temporary relief.
Only God heals!!
Everything else requires Band-Aids to cover the wound.