Pity Pie in the sky

James 1:8

A double minded man is unstable in all his ways

My first thought : Two-faced

Not like the  backstabber kind of two-faced but more like the Flip Floppy I trust God/ now I don’t…two –faced.

In the Young’s Literal Translation is says this:

James 1:8  a two-souled man [is] unstable in all his ways.

Ever been there?

I have been reading in the book of James!

I started the first chapter thinking that I would read a chapter a day for the week and I barely made it half way through the first chapter …it’s now THURSDAY. I was captured by what was being said.

Faith/Doubt – FAITH/DOUBT

I know when I live that way I am a mess….way more messy then usual. I am a swirl of CHAOS. One day on a FAITH high and the next day something has grabbed my emotions and I am doubting that life is good, that I am loved, that God has my back…

Have you been there?

I have found what you might call Fickleness living in my heart.

Fickle is when you are likely to change.

A two-faced backstabber is fickle because they say one thing to one person and another to someone else. They change with whomever is around them. I think it is terrible for people to be that way but what about my FICKLE FAITH.

One day “ God is good, praise the Lord!!” and the next “ What am I going to do?…this is that is this is that and…whaaaa whaaa why God ?? Oh me oh my !”

 CHAOS to me is  Mental-Emotional-Physical-Relational Confusion and Disorder of heart and mind.

Like throwing myself on my couch for an hour after church nursing my wounds, recounting my embarrassment, whining about my situation. Having myself my very own pity pie in the sky.

EVER BEEN THERE?

So what do we do when we are there?

James 1:5-8 If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him.  But let him ask in faith, with no doubting, for he who doubts is like a wave of the sea driven and tossed by the wind.  For let not that man suppose that he will receive anything from the Lord;  he is a double-minded man, unstable in all his ways.

Isaiah 26:3 You keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on you, because he trusts in you.

FOCUS !!

We…ME

I am to FOCUS on who it is I believe in.

I am to FOCUS on the ONE who is my HELP.

I have to train my mind to STAY PUT on HIS GOODNESS and TRUST HIM!! Speaking to myself the BLESSING he has given. Reminding myself of HIS LOVE.

Lord Help ME!!!

I am NOT there 24/7? (that’s still fickle)

But in baby steps I will be!!

STARLA

Ps I found this quote:

I respect faith, but doubt is what gets you an education.

– Wilson Mizner

Doubt has been a catalyst to find TRUTH. It is important to remember God can use all things to teach us. Even in the midst of doubt he can bring us through our lessons.

Thankfullness and Trust to God !

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