A change in plans

tumble

Summer always brings a TUMBLE….

The schedule for school stops.

The routines that where in place – END!

Things change….

and the adjustment is a bit of a struggle.

(I guess I don’t like change that much!! )

Trying to get to the gym the last couple weeks has been a struggle…I made it but it was hard….to leave my house. At least when we got up, got ready and left the house to go drop off for school…I was out…so to the gym I went.

THE TEST is doing it all on my own MOTiVATiON!! whoooooooooooooo!

I feel like I have an abundance of free time…

so I either pack and cram it ….and wear out fast :0/

OR

I leave it so empty that I am not accomplishing anything :0/

so …

I got back on the FLYLADY train ….

Putting in place daily routines

15 mins at a time

and I get lots done and still have fun – and make it to the gym!!

BALANCE!!

I like that.

Have a great summer…

and if you find you are TUMBLING through it

Try Flylady you may be pleasantly surprised!!

STARLA

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A view of me and maybe you?

Do you worry about how you look to others?

How you feel to yourself?

ME TOO!!

Sometimes it is just annoying and I drive myself NUTS!!!

I clicked on a random post of mine called OBSERVATIONS…

Interesting to read!!

In the last year I have taken a test that my pastor suggested for us at church called the DISC test. After taking it I have been able to better see my personality in action.

…well at least become AWARE!!

It is amazing how much we HUMANS just don’t see ourselves. We are too busy looking at what others are doing and how they are reacting.

OBSERVATIONS was my shot at capturing what I was seeing in me in words :

https://starleeta.wordpress.com/2010/05/24/observation/

 

It is also wild that when I wrote it I hadn’t taken the test …but I talk about key issues of my personality. The test was so right on! and helpful to me.

It was so freeing to know that I am not a terrible person because these things keep happening to me…I found out I was made to think this way and my test and trial is learning how to work with what God gave me to His glory and not mine.

Maybe you struggle with the same issues??

“looking stupid”  –so you hide or not say anything because you fear someone will see you as dumb.

“nitpicking” –negativity, seeing what’s missing

“being vulnerable” – sharing your heart, fear of rejection.

“talking down to self” – guilt and shame placed on self from a evil monster within that wont let you be who you are.

If you do —your not alone. :0)

 

Starla

A little more Nitty Gritty.

Ok so I am at it again…

some more NITTY GRITTY!!

This whole post is making me uneasy. I wrote it and now I am adding this….

Learning to share my own lessons and struggles, hurts, and anger ….my humanness …my vulnerability.

Opening up my thinking and feeling and heart here.

So with that said : don’t judge me, just hear me…pray for me. I will do the same for you!

Finding out that some one gave you a dirty look when they thought they were scot-free to do so,  is no fun.

I have no ill will toward this person and why would they scowl at me??

I have always been kind, smiled, waved. No heart bother toward them…

THAT KIND OF STUFF JUST HURTS AND ISNT NICE…don’t do that to people. ( God help me if I do that!!)

( I watched a video where a Pastor told his congregation that the new F – word at their church was FORGIVENESS. Then he told them to tell others F- you. I don’t think they will ever think of the world’s F-word the same ever again… and so in keeping with what this pastor said and what this person did to me I suppose I will just have to FORGIVE them. —hahahah you thought I was gonna say F-them …sounds a little strange to say that to me.) :0/

Mark 11:26

But if you do not forgive, neither will your Father in heaven forgive your trespasses.

ok…next Gritty!

You ever met a person with a personality that just rubs you wrong??

I know the Lord wants to grow me, in patience and tolerance. BUT SERIOUSLY!!!

I know this one is all me! —My attitude toward them.

I do my best to be kind.

I smile.

I wave.

but I also steer clear. 

( you ever do that?? –avoid people you know are going to drive you nuts?)

(this is sounding a bit like the situation above and now I am the offender..grrrrrrrrrrrr! Isn’t God good like that!!! perfect lesson from a perfect teacher. )

I know I haven’t given this person a dirty look though…yet :0/ and I don’t want to.

I want to be able to see them, hear them, be near them and not cringe in annoyance.

This is not a new lesson…

It is but a new person that God is bringing around me that has similar traits to others I have since been able to get a grip and learn to love. GOD HELP ME!!!

Consider it all joy,

                my brethren, when you 

 encounter various trials,

                             knowing that the testing of              

               faith produces    

    patient endurance.

                                    James 1:2-3

Starla