I am humbled by this God who loves and uses us broken and imperfect people to help heal and love other broken and imperfect people.
Most of the day I was afflicted by words that were spoken to me. They replayed in my mind over and over, and what’s worse is they are now being self inflicted and no matter how many times I prayed, spoke the words “Lord I forgive” I just couldn’t shake the affects of the words that were said to me.
Proverbs 18:21 Death and life are in the power of the tongue
I felt myself wanting to become more and more introverted. Wall up and hide away. How many of us know all too well the pain of words and how heavy they can be? We can even have a heart ready and willing to forgive and yet still the baton of blasting just keeps on going in the mind. So many of us have been beaten and bruised until we just sit down and stop moving all together. The only key I know to overcoming this is to keep moving, keep praising, keep seeking and keep believing that in this too my God will reign.
God is sovereign and He will be exalted. He will have his way in me.
Tonight God used me to help a young lady who had been beaten by words. Long before the words had been spoken and the enemy had come to rip her apart inside and out, God had made an appointment for me with her. I was heading over and I prayed all the way there. I didn’t know what to say. I knew some of the situation and this was heavy.
Like ships on the water of life
we float along and crash at times
when the waters are calm too long
we forget how to swim when the waves topple us
we forget how to hold on when the seas are rough
we forget how to be anchored to the author of our soul
and we sink deep into the dark abyss
Love is the anchor holding me to God and love is the line that will reach people when the darkness has surrounded them. For her the darkness was rejection and the feeling of worthlessness. For me the darkness was ridicule and dismissal accompanied by a feeling of being insignificant. You know what happened after talking and being there for her and seeing her smile with hope returning to her eyes and eating some ice cream together? I realized that God touched me bringing in healing and love & He used me to minister to her.
When we let words of unkindness have a place in our lives to name our value and have a say in what we are worth we sink every time. Only God can name our worth:
Proverbs 3:15 She is more precious than rubies, And all the things you may desire cannot compare with her.
The bottom line is – who do we believe!?
To repeat GOD IS SOVEREIGN!! – these seemingly random things that happen to us in this life, if we believe that all things work together for good to them who love God then we can trust that everything really does happen for a reason. We only find out for what, when we trust Him in all things and let Him unfold His plan.
Tomorrow is a new day! No foolish words of yesterday will have my tomorrow!!